Years of piano lessons taught me how to read music. They also left me certain that no matter how much I might want it, and no matter how hard I tried, I would never play like Gould or Horowitz or McPartland. With every note my ear told me the result fell far short of the beauty I could hear so clearly in my head. That frustration – and the maturity of acceptance of my limitations – is one of the many threads that helped me create Bree Starling, the complicated, flawed heroine of Maybe Next Time.
I’d like to think that the loss of dreams of a musical career in my teens led me to embrace writing completely, and eventually led to my first Lambda Literary Award. I’m happy to admit that this is easily my most controversial novel–some readers found Bree thoroughly unlikeable, others found the story’s dueling timelines not to their liking. Yet others loved the depth and anguish in the story, and that after so many storm clouds and mistakes, Bree finally makes peace with her gift and her dreams–and the woman she loves.
Sabrina Starling doesn’t need love. She has fame as a brilliant violinist and unlimited options for female company. Nothing can shake her — except the memory of her very first love. Knowing that neither the teenaged nor adult Jorie will ever return her feelings, Sabrina has escaped into her music and the arms of other women.
When injury leaves her temporarily unable to perform, Sabrina finally finds the one woman who could free her forever from the memory of those stolen Hawaiian nights with Jorie. There’s one problem. The object of Sabrina’s desire, Diana, is deeply in love with Pam, the woman who has shared her life for the past eighteen years.
A family funeral calls Sabrina home to the islands, but she no long believes that the gentle breezes and possible welcome in Jorie’s eyes can repair the lives she’s shattered, including her own.
Karin Kallmaker’s searing novel of innocent first love and dangerous seduction joins an unparalleled string of critically acclaimed bestsellers that earned her the title of Undisputed Mistress of Lesbian Romance.
© 2003 • 242 pages • 80,317 words