Sleepless in the City that Never Sleeps

Karin Kallmaker Awards and Reviews, Kiss That Counted, Sisters of the Pen

Sights CocaCola
The sky is slowly lightening outside my hotel room window. It’ll be a while before it can compete with the marquees on Times Square, which run all night and day with blazing neon and massive LED displays. One of the marquees is the iconic Coca-Cola sign. A while ago I noticed it wasn’t red and white, and wondered if gray and white were colors for the Witching Hour. Then I saw that inside the sign were animated workers doing whatever they had to do. I wondered how many people were awake to see it.

Just across the way from my window at least one floor of the building is a gym. There are rows of treadmills. Nobody using them right now. It’s all mesmerizing and wonderful. New York and there are still people on the streets. Some of them, however, are on their way to work, not still awake from the night before.

It’s hard to sleep after you’ve been hugged by Kate Clinton. The other thing that’s hard – and other writers I know will agree – is thinking about a book that was the project before the project before the one you are working on.

Thinking about a project from that long ago drives sleep away too. I’ve been thinking about The Kiss that Counted. I even read blogs here to remind me what I was doing when I wrote the book. I’m thinking about the book because earlier tonight (I haven’t yet slept, so it’s not “yesterday”) it became my second Lammy-winning lesbian romance novel. I feel a little bit Sally Field. (That I promptly won a third Lammy 5 minutes later for the joint project In Deep Waters 2 written with Radclyffe, put the entire evening into a different sphere of experience, especially after I got a second hug from Kate Clinton.)

Cover, The Kiss that CountedMostly in The Kiss that Counted, I remember the llama spit. Not something that comes up often in lesbian romance, but I do always fear writing the same book twice, and something like llama spit as a plot element helps me avoid that.

But I also remember that I wanted to explore what happens when someone hiding from the light meets the sun.

The Coca-Cola sign is still gray and white. I think the sun might be on the verge of rising. It’s nearly the solstice, after all. And I think about what I wanted to write in my novel and realize that’s not the final resolution of a book, what I wanted to put on the paper. The final resolution is how that book was read. Ultimately, though I write to please myself, it’s all about the readers.

When I accepted the Lammy, I paid tribute to Katherine Forrest. She edited my first book back in 1990, and The Kiss that Counted was the first book of mine she had edited in all the years since. And look where I was standing. She took me seriously as a writer and I have tried ever since to be worthy of her faith and gracious handling of my newbie author ego. I think I might be getting there. Certainly, I will go right on taking her advice! I also thanked my publisher, and in my second acceptance speech, I thanked KG MacGregor for kicking my butt when necessary (KG’s good at that butt-kicking thing) because KG was there, and I like to thank the people in the room.

I didn’t thank my readers. Few of them were in the room, and those that were attended as writers and colleagues. So now the Coca-Cola sign is back to red and white. They changed the design. There are some cartoons rolling up and down the can. I’m finally to the point of this blog, too – I want to thank the people in this room.

Thank you readers.

Without you, there would be no point to writing. No point to striving every book to write better so that you never feel you wasted any time or money on a book. I’m going to keep writing until they pry the keyboard out of my cold, stiff hands. Meanwhile, someone’s on the treadmill. I think I should take that as a suggestion that I have a treadmill to return to myself – but not before some sleep makes “earlier tonight” into “yesterday.”

Written in one go, checked only for spelling; trying that “moving hand” exercise that I wrote about from GALLA.

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  1. Congrats on your awards, Karin! Thank YOU for sharing your wonderful stories with us. I hope my fair city is treating you and yours well… even if the weather as of late has been less than fair 🙂 FYI, if you need a chocolate fix while you’re in town, stop by Teuscher’s at Rock Center for some champagne truffles or Jacques Torres in Soho… or better yet his DUMBO location!